One month after diagnosis, his body needed a nightly 7 units of Lantus to maintain.

Nineteen months later, we’ve just upped it to 14 units. They say 20 isn’t unusual for a kid his age and size, but with every increment our sense of vulnerability increases. The more insulin he needs, the more our dependence on a world outside our control is made evident. The idea of control exists only largely as illusion anyway, but a parent needs to believe she can somehow keep her children safe in the world. Diabetes – any disease or hurt one can’t fix – reveals the falsehood of that fantasy. Living with the reality day after day breaks my heart bit by bit.

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