Yes, the insulin pump is a huge improvement: the increased flexibility to make quick adjustments, to snack without extra shots – these are great things. I do not miss stabbing my son (or him having to jab himself) repeatedly throughout the day. But the set change every third day – more often if it gets pulled loose – still triggers such confusion in my heart. Sliding a needle into my child’s body goes against every maternal protective instinct that I have. And that’s the thing, right? That so often parenting, which should be about trusting your instinct, becomes a struggle between what your brain knows needs to happen and what your heart is willing to allow.